Oh am I excited! I've decided to take up the gauntlet and fight once again to regain control over my body. This has got to be the one zillionth time I've done this. I don't recommend this to anyone by the way. Yoyoing is a horrible way to go throughout life. Deprivation and indulgence - that's my cycle. I understand there are psychological reasons why I do this. I'm working on those things for sure. But for now, this not fitting into my jeans thing is way too old. I am NOT buying clothes in a larger size. Of course I'm currently stretching any pant I can wear to its outermost limit so I'm not fooling anyone. LOL!
Anyway, I've decided that it's either deprive myself of tidbits and morsels of totally unreasonable foods or deprive myself of feeling sexy in my skin - and I like feeling sexy in my skin so it's back to the drawing board.
My next door neighbour is sick of her after baby weight. (Her baby is now three) She decided to do her own thing following the Weigh Watcher program. In my vast experience, unless you have an accountability buddy, programs don't generally last so she and I are going to be accountability buddies. She's losing twenty-five pounds. I'm fitting into my jeans.
Tomorrow we start so I have loaded up on popcorn, chocolate chip cookies and am going out to dinner tonight and plan on having a few drinks. It's traditional to start a program by having a good binge before hand - similar perhaps to having that one last fling before you get married. (Okay, just for prosperity, I didn't actually HAVE one last fling before I got married but you get the idea) It's also not really advisable to go on a binge before you start a program - in fact it is down right inadvisable - puts your sugars in the wrong place and forces you into a place of withdrawal but since when has logic prevailed when you have an eating disorder?!
Wish me luck. I will undoubtedly keep you poor people posted as starving dieters tend to be strangely self-centred. If I never mention this topic again, it probably means I'm still on a binge.
Enjoy today!!!
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